WHERE DID I COME FROM?

 

My name is Scott.

As a lifetime member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, my history is personal, but surely resonates with others worldwide.

I was baptized when I as 8 years old; Deacon, Teacher and Priest in the Aaronic Priesthood; attended Seminary; ordained an Elder; received my Temple Endowment; served a full two year foreign mission; sealed in the Temple; ordained a High Priest; served in a variety of callings (Primary Teacher to High Priest Group Leader and everything in between).

My mission service was diverse: serving in 8 different Areas, with highs and lows.
Seeing the gospel change lives (i.e.—meeting a man sitting on his lawn smoking something, then witnessing him grow in the gospel, get baptized, and eventually become Branch President).
Alternatively, traveling for miles by foot, bike and bus to teach investigators; learning a new language, dealing with fleas and cockroaches, getting robbed several times, getting spit upon and even receiving death threats.

During my mission I learned to “seek ye diligently and teach one another words of wisdom; yea, seek ye out of the best books words of wisdom; seek learning, even by study and also by faith.” -D&C 88:118
I studied only from books and scripture that were approved by the church for mission use.

After my mission, I continued to live the gospel and enjoyed visiting many church sites including Palmyra, Nauvoo, Carthage, Salt Lake City and Utah in general, various Visitor Centers, Temple Open Houses, Pageants, as well as Regional Conference and General Conference sessions.

Together, my family and I have grown in the church; being baptized and blessed, through Primary and Priesthood.

 

I mention this brief history to convey that throughout my life, I have been beyond dedicated to the church; Yes, there have been difficult periods during my life, but I have always diligently sought for truth and have consistently taught the principles and doctrine of the gospel through talks, teaching, missionary work, leadership and through the spirit.

I have consistently defended the church and have lost many friends over the gospel;
Financial resources have been sacrificed through tithing, mission, service;
Countless hours have been sacrificed in study, service, meetings, home teaching and forsaking my life so I could find it.
I have spent hours down on my knees, reaching up to the heavens in prayer.

My life has been dotted with temples and testimonies; commandments and callings; a marriage and a mission.

However, recent admissions of the church have left me in disbelief from dishonesty; bewildered from betrayal; and hurt from hidden truths.I have Mormon Wounds.

 

I now publicly announce a new personal mission:

  • Promote and secure acknowledgement and validation from church leadership of NOW Mormons
  • Promote and receive compassionate public recognition, remorse and regret from church leadership for the Culture of Concealment historically perpetuated by the The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints

When we fail to stand for truth, we betray.